Living with pain - my story.
by Michelle Desjardins
(Saint-Andre, NB Canada )
My name is Michelle, I am a 51 year old french Canadian woman living with fibromyalgia. I looked up the definition of this in the dictionary. It states:
Pain - noun
- physical suffering or distress due to injury, illness, etc.
- a distressing in a particular part of the body.
- mental or emotional suffering or torment.
Synonyms - torture, misery, torment, pain, ache, agony, anguish, are terms for sensation causing suffering or torment.
- pain suggest a sudden sharp twinge.
- ache applies to a continuous pain, wether acute or dull.
- agony implies a continuous, excruciating, scarcely endurable pain.
- anguish suggests not only extreme and long continued pain, but also a feeling of despair.
Pain, ache, agony, anguish are terms for sensation causing suffering and torment.
Pain and ache usually refer to physical sensations (except headhache).
Agony and anguish may be physical or mental.
There are no test we can get for fibromyalgia. How long does one have to live with this illness before he or she can get treatment. I was diagnosed with this illness 2 years ago. Before I was diagnosed, I was hospitalized for mental breakdown and put on anti-depressants. The doctors did not know what was wrong with me. So, they feed me pills. I have been on Lyrica for the past year. The doctor started me on 150 mg once a day and then upped to 300 mg a day. The side effects were so bad that he then put me on 150 mg again, once a day. The doctor sent me to a Neurologist who suggested I smoke pot due to the fact I am not responding to the medication and have too many bad side effects. Back at my family doctor he refused to even offer me this. He said no way he would go for this alternative.
This is my story I'm sad to say. My lifestyle has changed completely. This is also hard on my family and this makes me sad.
We need to find a way to get more resources for this everyday continuous illness. Thanks to this web site we can now start talking about it and make our stories known.
I am proud to be one of the first to write about my story. I would like to have this site grow stronger and maybe one day find a cure.
You are not alone my friends,