My causes for FMS, too much to tell
by victoria
I'm a very young, healthy looking 60yr. old. I was one of those youngsters that could excel in every physically damaging sport. I grew up in San Francisco which kept me very busy. As an only child, my mother lived through me. She was a very good mother when she wasn't sick. Mentally ill and schizophrenic she hide it well. She had me busy in show business and sports at the age of 3. I ended up a pro ice skater. Lord knows my body took a beating. I banged the heck out of my body. Not to mention the emotional and mental abuse in my life was frequent. I was stalked at the age of 6yrs then four more times in my life men tried to abuse me including my father. I was very well taught by my mother not to trust strangers, she was with her sister when a stalker shot and killed her sister. That's what the Dr's thought messed her up. She always was trying to kill herself. Well I inherited her depression and fibro. Yes, the Dr's said it was all in her head. She had all the symptoms. I wish I knew then what I now know, I would have treated her better. Since the age of 18 I had depression. I too tried to self medicate and do myself in, not knowing there was a better way, antidepressants. So at the age of 25 I was able to pull it together and have a great family. I've been doing good, had some hard times but worked it out. Had also been in 2 rear end car accidents. Well, like I said, too much to tell all. My fibro flared up when my beloved friend and husband of 33yrs died. That's a long story. He could still be alive today if the dr. would have done the testing I asked. The fibro became full blown. I work with my hands in electronics. I worry like crazy what is going to happen when I can't do it anymore. Money benefits gone. What's going to happen to me?
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